You are born...first thing that you do is fucking cry...then you grow up...every one likes you when you are a baby...they adore you...according to people "You are the most wonderful" thing ever....you don't know any kinda shit going around you....you grow up a little...you start knowing things...you know whats right and what wrong...you like doing what is wrong...you start getting into this vicious phase and all you hear, read or experience are words and things like education, school, porn, college, engineering, medicine, MBA, IIT, IIM, cricket, sports, football, ciggerttes, beer, whiskey, scotch ...at the same time...you want to have female/male attention...so that you look cool and you are the guy/gal with a BF/GF....then in the next phase you hear things like computers, Oracle, Infosys, Google, Microsoft, databases, Project Management, Java, coding, scripting, F1 visa, GRE, TOEFL, H1B-visa, L1 visa, green card, voter Id, drivers license, environment, MD, MS, working 9-5, weekend parties, daaru, shaaru, movie, shuvi.......buy every fucking gadget out there...buy fancy fucking stuff like phones, watches, PS3,....and If you are still in a relationship and its going good you get married...If you broke up...you cry, think that you have the worst possible life out there....bitch about life and bitch about every motherfucking thing in this world, drink youself to death.....and then you come out of it...and then get married because you want a partner...you want a "Sahara (Hindi word.. not the desert), companionship, someone whom you can spend time with, He/She is the one"....Life is great....you are happily married, you quit smoking, quit drinking, you eat healthy, low cholestrol, high protein, high carbs...drink only during parties...you turn into a social fucking animal...do everything according to fucking society ...you buy a fucking car, you buy a fucking house, start a fucking savings a/c with your wife..you buy fucking furniture from IKEA, you buy a big fucking ass TV, Home theater system....you go outside the country for vacation every year (If you got enough money)......after few years...you have kids.......you feel happy...you start changing diapers...clean up their shit....and they start to talk....and they grow up...ask all stupid questions....they grow up little more...you upgrade your house..upgrade your car to SUV or Van...you take a mortgage on your home, start worrying about school and college for kids, they grow up into adults and get into jobs...you hate your job...you want to quit...but you can't... you have big fucking mortage, loans and what not...so you keep on working...your children get married...you have thanks giving, christmas (Dusheera, diwali for desi's) dinners...you kids visit you during long weeknds...your kids have kids...you are a grandpa/ma...you start getting diseases...your kids start ignoring you...they are busy with their lifes...you are fucking old...you can't do things without anyones help...eventually you fucking die...
Do what you want to....untill u realize its too late...
See ya'all next time...
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
Road Trip - My thoughts
I went on a road trip during labour day weekend...and several thoughts flashed in front of my eyes...basically i revisited my life during 3100 mile trip...to start off After first two hundred miles i wasn't sure If I'm gonna make it to Phoenix...so instead of thinking about the destination...I decided I will just enjoy the journey. The west part of Texas is beautiful and scary at the same time...beautiful for its mountains and steep roads....scary because there was literally nothing for few hundred miles..so If your car breaks down you are screwed...thanks to my Honda it never left me in middle of nowhere...
Things have been going tough for me quite a while...so I wanted to get away for few days...I had to refresh myself...so that i can comeback stronger and face the situation....and I think this break really helped me...I learnt quite a few things on how to handle and plan in life...just like driving to a farther place...it all starts with small steps...just decide where you want to go and keep going until u reach your destination...ignore all the obstacles that u might face on your way...after around 800 miles my neck and shoulders started hurting...and I wasn't sure If would be able to drive the last 300 miles...I kept going...taking breaks every 100 miles...finally I reached Phoenix after 16hr 45 min of nonstop driving from Houston...I wasn't tired or anything but there was bit of pain on my neck and shoulders...
I have realized that long drives certainly helps me in rejuvenating my inner self and refresh my believes and I feel stronger after the trip...I feel that I have achieved something...its sort of winning a lottery or something like completing a marathon...the sense of joy or feeling that u have cannot be expressed in words...I don't know how many of you like driving...but I certainly do...even though I have low-back problem (guess I'm getting old... :-) )...I still feel its worth every bit of pain...
The second part of the trip was from Phoenix to LA...I had my friend giving me company from Phoenix...and during this second part..we were listening to songs, talking about old movies, how India changed in 5 years (esp. Hyderabad), relationships, marriage and how important it is at this point of our lives (late 20's and early30's) we need to be with our friends and families...we both have been in US for a while and most of our friends got married or in a relationship and the sense of feeling alone hits you once in a while...sometimes during the low phases of life its very tough to motivate yourself and do things that you used to do when things were going good....we listen to lot of Rafi Saab and kishore songs...especially Rafi and shammi kapoor combination...It was great driving and listening to these songs and sing them out loud...when we reached LA...my mind set was totally changed....I felt like "Life is not bad, It can be fun.." I mean sometime u live for these moments..no matter how much you write or talk about it...the experience always stays with you...
So everyone out there who are busy with your lives, work and family...do youself a favour take break and go on a road trip... and rediscover your life....
Adios...untill next time...
Things have been going tough for me quite a while...so I wanted to get away for few days...I had to refresh myself...so that i can comeback stronger and face the situation....and I think this break really helped me...I learnt quite a few things on how to handle and plan in life...just like driving to a farther place...it all starts with small steps...just decide where you want to go and keep going until u reach your destination...ignore all the obstacles that u might face on your way...after around 800 miles my neck and shoulders started hurting...and I wasn't sure If would be able to drive the last 300 miles...I kept going...taking breaks every 100 miles...finally I reached Phoenix after 16hr 45 min of nonstop driving from Houston...I wasn't tired or anything but there was bit of pain on my neck and shoulders...
I have realized that long drives certainly helps me in rejuvenating my inner self and refresh my believes and I feel stronger after the trip...I feel that I have achieved something...its sort of winning a lottery or something like completing a marathon...the sense of joy or feeling that u have cannot be expressed in words...I don't know how many of you like driving...but I certainly do...even though I have low-back problem (guess I'm getting old... :-) )...I still feel its worth every bit of pain...
The second part of the trip was from Phoenix to LA...I had my friend giving me company from Phoenix...and during this second part..we were listening to songs, talking about old movies, how India changed in 5 years (esp. Hyderabad), relationships, marriage and how important it is at this point of our lives (late 20's and early30's) we need to be with our friends and families...we both have been in US for a while and most of our friends got married or in a relationship and the sense of feeling alone hits you once in a while...sometimes during the low phases of life its very tough to motivate yourself and do things that you used to do when things were going good....we listen to lot of Rafi Saab and kishore songs...especially Rafi and shammi kapoor combination...It was great driving and listening to these songs and sing them out loud...when we reached LA...my mind set was totally changed....I felt like "Life is not bad, It can be fun.." I mean sometime u live for these moments..no matter how much you write or talk about it...the experience always stays with you...
So everyone out there who are busy with your lives, work and family...do youself a favour take break and go on a road trip... and rediscover your life....
Adios...untill next time...